Sometimes, I do hear people say that I am thoughtful and I often think up some interesting ideas.
I don't think so.
You can say I'm inconfident. But I am really damn lazy to think.
I don't give a damn to almost everything.
I only care about myself---my own feelings. Read my blog and you'll see this.
I don't say I'm immune to emoitons but I am immune to anything happen arround me.
I hate calculating what this life is worthwhile for.
I hate discussing what other peoples' crazy speeches and thoughts.
I hate everything that is imposed on me.
So, how do you pursuade me to believe myself as a good thinker and a good care giver?
2009年4月17日 星期五
Am I Really Rational?
Many say that they are very surprised to find me really rational rather than sensational.
Many say that they are even more surprised to find me really cold and unconcerned.
But I didn't tell them: I'm surprised too!! I don't even know that I am such a tough person who scares everybody away from me!!
J says sometimes I look like a damned shit when I am TIRED.
Oh, yeah? Now THAT is the reason!!
Don't you think it is pretty hard to communicate with these damn people?
Don't you think talking and thinking really bring you down and expend all your energy?
Don't you think these interaction with people, especially known ones, is really wasting my time, since nobody will pay a damn shit on you when you are down and exausted with those damn realities?
Don't you think when you're successful everybody, of course including you my DEAR, will try to show a damn bit more respect to you while they just spit on your grave when you finally get some place to rest down away from these damn shit things?
Don't you think I am pretty sensational (or irrational) asking you these questions?
I am irrational because I always laugh an unwilling laugh.
I am irrational because I always smile an unwilling smile.
I am irrational because I always appear in an unhappy place everyday.
I AM irrational because I always receive your complaints for the real irrational me I show you, J!!
That F*** You song should be there for everybody to sing!!
I just hope that I CAN be that rational person all of you see!!
As clever and realistic as you all said!!
Many say that they are even more surprised to find me really cold and unconcerned.
But I didn't tell them: I'm surprised too!! I don't even know that I am such a tough person who scares everybody away from me!!
J says sometimes I look like a damned shit when I am TIRED.
Oh, yeah? Now THAT is the reason!!
Don't you think it is pretty hard to communicate with these damn people?
Don't you think talking and thinking really bring you down and expend all your energy?
Don't you think these interaction with people, especially known ones, is really wasting my time, since nobody will pay a damn shit on you when you are down and exausted with those damn realities?
Don't you think when you're successful everybody, of course including you my DEAR, will try to show a damn bit more respect to you while they just spit on your grave when you finally get some place to rest down away from these damn shit things?
Don't you think I am pretty sensational (or irrational) asking you these questions?
I am irrational because I always laugh an unwilling laugh.
I am irrational because I always smile an unwilling smile.
I am irrational because I always appear in an unhappy place everyday.
I AM irrational because I always receive your complaints for the real irrational me I show you, J!!
That F*** You song should be there for everybody to sing!!
I just hope that I CAN be that rational person all of you see!!
As clever and realistic as you all said!!
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